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The Millennial Burnout

This story might be very relatable for you. Or not at all. Either way it is good to read about it and be aware of the following topic; The Millennial Burnout. This story is very personal because it is still something I am trying to figure out and work through. Let me start from the beginning:

My internship

During my graduation internship I worked for a company in the fashion industry and was an intern in the Public Relations department. After my first week my manager fell out because she ran into a burnout. Unfortunately, that left just me in the department. i was alone for a long time and was extremely busy figuring out what my tasks were and how things worked inside of this company. While figuring this out I was not only the intern for the department but also the manager…

I was constantly pushed beyond my own limits, which I did not realize until I started having panic attacks. An issue which I addressed with the Head of Marketing but they were too busy with finding an interim manager, and hĆ©, somebody had to do the work, right?…

Eventually during my internship of six months I have had four different managers and a lot of panic attacks. By some miracle, I managed to graduate without any further problems (even though I was rarely given time to work on my thesis during my internship).

How it still affects me

After my graduation I got a job for a company that I previously did volunteer work for. This was a comfortable and save environment where I could start exploring the post-student life. I currently work only 16 hours a week and that is enough for me.

It has been 8 months since my internship but I still struggle mentally everyday. Luckily I have learned when a panic attack is coming up and I can step away from a situation that is stressful for me. But after working on Monday and Tuesday I am tired for the rest of the week and find it hard to leave my bed.

The hardest thing of all is still accepting that this is how I feel and that it is okay to feel this way. I was (and still am) a very ambitious person who loves to work hard. The only difference now is that my body and mind prevent me from being ambitious and pro-active because I simply do not have the energy at the moment. This results into a continuous battle between who I want to be and who I can be at the moment without crossing my own boundaries again.

Unfortunately, we as millennials live in a society that expects us to succeed and even exceed in every endeavor we set our minds on. We always have to work harder, longer and faster. Not only in the work field are we expected to succeed but also in our personal lives, maybe even more so than in our career.

We are expected to have a lot of great friends, interesting hobbies, a busy social calendar and a lot of followers on social media. But why do we put this social pressure on ourselves? Or are millennials just born with an inert characteristic that wants us to prove ourselves to be better than our peers? Food for thought I guess…

I hope that, if this story is relatable to you, you learn that it is okay to feel this way and that you are certainly not the only one going through something like this.

Let me know in the comments if you ever had a similar experience and how you dealt with it or are dealing with it! Also if you have any questions let me know.

13 thoughts on “The Millennial Burnout

  1. I am so sorry you have panic attacks. I have them too and what has really helped me, as cliche as it sounds, is mind over matter. Do not let your anxiety get the best of you. You have full control. Shut those doubts away as soon as they start. At least, that’s what I tell myself.

    1. Thanks so much for your response! I’m someone who is always a very logical thinker so for my feelings to take over my mind is so weird to me. It’s definitely good to keep reminding myself that I am in control. Thank you again!

  2. TheresT no need to stress out when uouyou still so yoiny. Just be patient in life and do the right things according to your principles in life. šŸ™‚

  3. Iā€™m a Millennial and a mother so I can relate to this! There are high expectations for Millennials and I feel the same way. Just be encouraged and know that our strength comes from God and a strength far greater than this world or ourselves has to offer. Great read!

    1. It’s good to hear that you can relate. That’s one of the reasons I am writing on my blog šŸ™‚ Thank you so much for your supportive response. Bless you!

  4. Iā€™m so sorry you had to experience this so early in life. I had a similar burnout experience after nearly 25 years of working. The best advice `i can give you is to prioritize your diet, sleep and self care.

    1. Great tip! Thank you so much for responding šŸ™‚ Currently very selfaware about how i sleep, eat and treat myself!

  5. I can understand what you are going through with the panic attacks because I suffer from panic attacks too. Now I’m starting to control them a little bit but it’s not always so easy. You’re brave!

    1. I’m so sorry to hear that you also suffer panick attacks! I’m also just starting to learn how to stay in control. You’re brave too and I hope you’re doing well! Thanks for responding šŸ™‚

  6. Sorry to hear about your experience. As i grow older, I understand more the importance of taking time out for yourself defining your own truth and living by it and not be pressured by others. I wish you all the best

    1. Thank you so much for responding! It is so important to take time out of our busy lives to connect with ourselves again. Hope you’re doing well!

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